The barbarians are at the gates, and they're us

 

So. The rabidly incompetent Secretary of Defense and the demented President are planning on live-streaming the execution of Nidal Hasan, the convicted Fort Hood shooter who killed 14 soldiers in 2009. 

I have questions.

Let's start with if Nidal Hasan had been a White Christian Nationalist who had killed 14 soldiers, would the Pentagon and the Executive Branch want to livestream that person's execution, or is this something special, trotted out specifically for Muslims? The answer is self-evident. 

Firing squad. A firing squad. Really? Who are the soldiers who will be tasked with shooting Nidal Hasan? Will they take volunteers? Will it be assigned, like a collateral duty? Will all the weapons be loaded? What if a soldier refuses to participate on moral grounds? Will they be court-martialed? And let's be clear, here - the military has the authority to use any one of several methods to execute a convicted soldier. They don't have to use a firing squad, they're choosing to. Crap on a cracker, what a moral shit show.

Whose idea was this? Trump's? Hegseth's? Miller's? Not that it matters - the entire chain of command (and some not in the chain of command) are responsible. 

Who actually believes this is a good idea? Certainly not "Whichever way the wind blows" Vice President, who has indicated he will not be watching the event. And really, how morally bankrupt does an idea have to be before Vance draws a line on the other side of the Republican establishment?

If the House of Representatives didn't already have good reason to impeach Hegseth (war crimes, anyone?), they do now. Where are you, Republicans? Oh, that's right. The same place you've been for ten years - with your nose planted firmly up Trump's ass.

And lastly, what the fuck. No, seriously - what the actual fuck? For decades we've tsk-tsked the governments who have engaged in public execution as barbaric, primitive, untrustworthy, uncivilized. And now we're going to do the same because the administration is being run by the mentally unstable Insane Clown Posse? 

Have you no sense of decency, Congress, at long last?

Reconciling Lolita

 

One of my goals for this year is to read some classic literature that I missed during my schooling. I have a list of books on the agenda, and I'm spacing them out between my popcorn books so I don't get burned out. 

July's selection was Lolita, by Vladimir Nabokov, narrated by Jeremy Irons. It's the story of Humbert Humbert (H²), a pedophile whose actions, obsessions, and selfishness creates a most terrible outcome for everyone involved.  

First and foremost, Nabokov writes beautifully. His exposition provides a clear mind's-eye picture of H² and Lolita's experiences, without burying the reader in prose. His ability to turn a phrase into something so clearly descriptive is a wonder. 

Jeremy Iron's narration is also wonderful. His voice is perfect for the main character (written in the first person), with all his conflict, mental illness, selfishness, compulsion, and delusions. 

However, the subject matter of this book is....problematic. 

H² is the worst kind of pedophile. He grooms Lolita to be his lover, taking advantage of her lack of experience, and manipulates the situation to his twisted ends. And they are twisted. He's completely delulu when it comes to Lolita, thinking that she seduced him, so apparently his long-term abuse of a minor is a-okay. And while Lolita is a spicy kid, she is still a child, incapable of giving consent. 

And the worst part? H² knows what he's doing to her. He hears her sobbing in the night after she thinks he's asleep, he knows what he's doing is wrong (or why take such elaborate measures to hide their relationship?), and he simply does. not. care. 

As long as he has access to his "nymphette," he doesn't really care what happens to other people, or how his obsession is hurting the one person he claims to love.

In short, he's a complete and utter douche. Nabokov makes him completely unlikable, and if the character were flayed at the end it would be too good for him. 

So, how to reconcile Nabokov's craft with this most disgusting of characters? I'm still not sure. While listening, I spent a lot of time saying things like "EWWW" or "that poor child" or "dude needs to be keelhauled for his trouble." 

Would I recommend others read it when they don't have to? I have to say yes. The yuck is worth the study of Nabokov's writing, and how beautifully the author sends H² into a death spiral of obsession and hubris, selfishness and abuse. Will I reread it some day? Almost certainly not. There's only such much ew I can take. 

Welcome Back!

 

Welcome back! 

I haven't written consistently in a long, long time. Part of that is that blogs just aren't the medium anymore (hello, Substack), and part of that is a stunning lack of inspiration. 

However, one of my goals for this year is to resume writing on a semi-regular basis, on whatever subject suits me. I'll be cross-posting on my Substack, as well, since apparently that's where all the cool kids are, but I'll never give up this URL, or the history. 

RSS feed on the side, and link to my Substack above. 

I missed you guys. 

Saving those who cannot save themselves

My favorite picture of Moe, cosplaying Belle from Beauty and the Beast

As most of my readers know, I lost my daughter to suicide in 2013. It's been nine long years since we lost her, and I'm as sorrowful today as I was the day she died. 

Moe died of uncontrolled mental illness. She experienced severe depression, and was under a doctor's care for her condition. But we lost her anyway, leaving a Moe-shaped hole in my heart that nothing is able to fill.

Every day I mourn her loss in this world, and I would give everything to have her here with us again. But I can't have that, so instead I choose to perform service projects in her memory such as being a good ally to the LGBTQ+ community, and donating money to institutions she cared about, like our local library foundation.

And I also support  AFSP's mission in helping people who are at risk overcome their lack of hope and help those who have been affected by suicide.

This is the sixth year I've been up to participating in this event personally, but this will be the ninth year the Maureen's Marchers team is hitting the road in my baby girl's name on the annual Out of the Darkness Denver Metro Walk. The money raised in this event will go to fighting suicide and supporting AFSP's goal to reduce the suicide rate 20% by 2025.

The danger of suicide is especially high within the LGBTQ+ community. According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, suicide is the second leading cause of death among youth aged 15 to 24 and the third leading cause of death among youth aged 10 to 14. Among youth who identify as sexual minorities, the likelihood of death by suicide has been estimated to be two to seven times greater than the likelihood of death by suicide among heterosexual youth. These kids need help, and it's up to us to provide it in any way we can.

Please help us honor our lost, beloved Moe-Moe and consider donating to the AFSP by clicking the "Donate" button on this page. All donations are 100% tax deductible and benefit the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP), funding research, education, advocacy, and support for those affected by suicide. The AFSP is a Charity Navigator 4 star charity, and they spend 83.1% of their total budget on program expenses.

"When you are sorrowful look again at your own heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." ~ Khalil Gibron

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The value of conservatives

This was in my inbox this morning, and gave me some food for thought. 

As I continue to sort my thoughts regarding the schism in our country, I have come to realize that I don't - and never have had - a personal issue with conservatives when the word is used to describe the pre-Reagan Republican Party. I no longer agree with their platform, but I consider them the loyal opposition, and understand they're worthy of a place at the table. There is value in balancing the desire and need for change with the cautiousness of conservatism in a democratic republic. I used to be a Republican, after all.

There are still a few public servants out there who fall into this category, although they're few and far between these days. Mitt Romney. Liz Chaney. Susan Collins. Lisa Murkowski. The GOP calls them "RINOs," Republican in Name Only, and they're right - they are RINOs. Instead, let's call these Congresspeople conservatives, while the rest of the GOP can keep the moniker "Republican."

Because in today's political climate, to be a "Republican" politician is to work to undo our democracy through any means necessary to achieve Republican goals and to support the ultra-rich, disregarding the will of the vast majority of Americans. And if you stand by, see what's happening and do nothing, then you forfeit any claim you might have had to public service and patriotism, and you certainly forfeit any claim to the word "conservative." 

There are those who consider Islam, or liberalism, or progressives, or the boogie-man de jour an existential threat to our country and way of life. But I think it's those who would support autocracy who pose the biggest threat. Autocracy and authoritarianism are the exact opposite of how Americans are supposed to govern ourselves, and supporting it is the most unAmerican thing a citizen can do. 

January 6th was an insurrection, an attempted coup, and those who planned and executed it should be prosecuted to the full extent of the law, regardless of who they are and what positions they may have held or hold today. And those who passively supported it should never be allowed to influence our government again, in any capacity. Let them pay for their cowardice by becoming pariahs in the present and excoriated in the history books of the future. 

More on Lashes

As you all know, I recently tried lash extensions in an effort to reduce my beauty requirements during our upcoming trip to Italy. This experiment was NOT a success, so my friend Cindy, a master aesthetician, recommended Le Grande Lash serum to see if I could get those suckers to grow, and here's my status report.

Before: 

After:

After, with makeup:

I'm going to call this a success, especially because I really don't want my lashes to be any longer with mascara than they are now. 

This is not a look I believe I can pull off at my current age. I do wear glasses, after all, and I live in a high-wind area. What if I took flight?

I think I'm going to stick with the Le Grande Lash product from now on, and my trusted and true Blinc mascara. Ciao, Baby! 

On Gas Prices and Partisan Politics

I'm getting pretty tired of hearing all the bitching about high gas prices. Not because people are bitching, though - higher gas prices are a burden for folks who don't make a ton of money. I've been in that economic bracket, and it sucks, big time, especially when wages haven't kept up with inflations since what? The late 70's?

No, I'm tired of it because (AS USUAL) it's become a partisan talking point which ignores all the facts in service to party talking points. So I did some research, and here are the results. Take it, leave it, stick your fingers in your ears and sing "Lalalalala" all day, I don't care. But the next time this silliness comes up, I'm referring the purveyor to this blog post.

• The price of gasoline is not controlled by the President - ANY President, regardless of party. If it was, the United States really would be a socialist nation, because private enterprise would all be nationalized and operated by the government. But our government doesn't have that power, regardless of the way the right flings the word "socialist" around without actually knowing what it means. 
• According to the U.S. Energy Information Administration, the top five sources of U.S. petroleum imports were from: 
• Canada - 52%
• Mexico - 11%
• Russia - 7%
• Saudi Arabia - 7%
• Colombia: 4%
• According tot he U.S. Energy Information Administration, the top five sources of U.S. crude oil imports by share of total crude oil imports in 2020 were:
• Canada - 61%
• Mexico - 11%
• Saudi Arabia - 8%
• Colombia - 4%
• Iraq - 3%
• Based on these facts, it seems pretty evident that the bad guy in this scenario is - surprise, surprise - BIG OIL. Consider:
• Exxon, Shell, BP, and Chevron have their highest profits in seven years, over $75B. Yes, that's billion with a "B."
• Exxon, Chevron, and Conoco are using 40% of these massive profits to execute stock buybacks instead of lowering gas prices. 
• These companies are laughing all the way to bank (or the Cayman Islands, same-same) while Americans struggle to fill their tanks. This is what they've always done, and will continue to do, because they're rewarded for this behavior beyond the dreams of avarice. 
• The Keystone Pipeline is not a factor in gas prices, regardless of what Tucker the Entertainer tells you. 
• The Keystone Pipeline is complete. It currently carries 540K barrels of oil per day.
• The Keystone Pipeline only carries "tar sands oil," not crude oil, which isn't used to make gasoline. 
• The Keystone Pipeline is owned by a Canadian company and comes from Canada. This makes it an import.  
• The extension of this pipeline (Keystone XL) has been cancelled by the private Canadian company who owns the pipeline. The US government did not force them to do this, they examined the cost-benefit analysis and made a decision base on profitability, which is what private companies do. If we lived in a socialist state, then the president could take control of these lands and nationalize oil production/distribution. But again, we don't, so you can't blame the President (regardless of political party) for failing to do so. Unless socialism suddenly isn't destroying America, in which case the Right has some explaining to do.

I'm in no way saying Russia's invasion of Ukraine has not had an impact on oil prices. But in this case, I don't think it's an entirely a case of "supply and demand." I think it's a case of "Oil executives can never have enough money, regardless of how much they get." 

But as usual, mass media and partisan talking-heads and politicians are trying to make it out like it's Biden's fault, or Trump's fault, or anyone's fault except our own corrupt system. Imagine what we could accomplish if we started holding the right people accountable. Just imagine. 

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ETA: My friend Alex reminds me that this "we should be energy independent!" trope is going around again. Except we don't WANT to be energy independent because we still want to drive huge, low-MPG vehicles, and support fossil fuels, and fail to support renewables. If we want energy independence, then we have to actually, you know, DO something about it beyond bitching.